viddy

I'll increased the verbage

when i get the pow

plastic fashion

not fake

i choose to keep my mind awake

i always get introspective before I sleep

maybe insomnia makes you deep

think out thoughts

and add in dreams

eyes get heavy

but hope lightens the weight you worry of your dreams

dont wait

dont stop

i'll stop exploring when i drop

shoulder pads are back again

or at least thats whats in my head

you look awesome is what one friend said

other said i look homeless

but thats what some try

uptight and tense

but actions

that prevent reactions

stop the clashing

never know

unless they're in your faction

not trying to get political

but a lot of is subliminal

time the biggest price you play

and its noncriminal

choice to live right

they say they do it for the kids

not larry david

but i like the way my skateboard spins

what to know it all

like the size of the girl with three chins

but i'm going up

but people pop you with their bobby pin

they don't get it

so they stop you

with no understanding

they can't rob you

your life problems

only solved by you

your path is the only thing you can choose

50s, 60s

then they had the groove

liberators had something to prove

stagnation never

always on the move

life is changing and its crude

can't do it all but you can include

never conclude

death before dilute

losing control

is the same as pressing mute

new is old like blue cheese dressing

ideas are worth stressing

striking hearts

changing expressions

no one continues to play the recorder

and very few become a basketball players

in childhood they planned to be decision

end up changes cause us to bend

seeing life through a fish eye lens

nothing straight

everything broken

cant find the pieces

but i know the focus

not far off

i know the locus

you only care about losing weight

when your pants don't fit

you stop caring about being different

when you learn you'll never fit

i'm glad to say i saw the best of my time

i've known some of the best that haven't been signed

fueled by passion

not really making a dime

but hard work is paid with time

if you have talent some how you'll shine

make a viddy,

put it on the screen,

visual illness,

those dudes are so sick

its obscene,

they from new orleans

but look like that BK scene

i can recognize your favorite albums

and sign the beats and lyrics to the songs not intended for you to hear it

on purpose i dance off beat

off teh street

swerving like i missed the sheep

keep on coungin

cause i'm not alseep

thinking higher

thinking deep

one day i'll buy my beemer

to me it'll be cheap

cause isnt given

it is gain

mind widened cause listened to music insane

they prob did 'caine

if out the loop you'd think its lame

but never the same i needed a change

they say question

before you knell

absolution and acceptance is what you gain and feel

but Faust made a deal

because life's a gamble

born clueless

only past experiences to sample

I’ll never know why someone looks up to me

and what they expect of me.

I think I worry so much about trying to be happy,

because I’ll never know what someone else is thinking.

I’ll never know if someone is thinking or feeling the same way as me.

I’ll never really know how much a person likes or dislike me,

or why they want to be around me in the first place.

I’ll never know their first impression of me

or the first thoughts that come to their mind when my name is mentioned.

I’ll never know why relationships change

or know the moment when things stopped being the same.

I’ll never know anything,

but that shouldn’t stop me from trying to feel anything.

i will never understand your happiness

until i discover the purpose of my sadness

I think I will always be mediocre at best

with someone on my back

and attaining only borderline successes

but only in the relative sense

because everything comes with an expense

all actions limited by your personal defense

should you stand under fire

if the outcome you desire

will leave you in the same place.

I just want to be acknowledged & finish.

what is the meaning of living life to the fullest

what is its purpose

when life is balanced with injustice

justice is challenged by defiance

which is relative

like all of our experiences

feelings considered inferior

knowledge stifled

choice limited by circumstance

it's not about trying 'til your good enough

it's about hearing it until you had enough

not saying you know all stuff

or that your being treated unjust

but efforts failed makes you want to give up

not to give up your effort

or give your dreams

but the fight that proves that you believe in those things

can you disprove an assumption

can you prove your thoughts

can anyone ever

understand how you feel

if they say they know your feelings

and they say your feeling

lead into actions

that aren't doing enough

A sponge is my moleskine

off the dome
but this chick is not mindless
full common sense

like the city Rhymefest
oh wait I am
si se puede

yes I can
even the prez is from my city man
I'm glad they gave a black man a chance
that's differenet from giving one a rap deal
so he can spit ignorance and dance
I'm creating change not waiting on my chance


In the middle of college
so you can call me educated
but I got miseducated by Lauryn Hill
I'm intrigued by lyrical skill
and by the way true lyrics make me feel



I became different in high school
I don't know when the ultimate transition began
went form average to music knowledge
amazing independent knowledge until the days in



A sponge is my moleskine
in the pages that pain soaks in
with liquid ink I try to make you think
but most of time, it is not acknowledged at all
blaming myself because shyness and self-esteem has made me take the greatest fall


if I want to I can make my ribs show
make my ribs show
make my
make my ribs show
I'm filled with knowledge from life and college
filled with questions
everyday I try to solve them
but all of this is in the intangible
and my greatest conflicts are still understandable
and nothing I've gone through has been unmanageable
that's because I damage the bull
don't feed off nonsense because I might be happier
but I rather not be full




the internet gave him a fan base
and the radio made him successful




I'm not turning my back on black culture
I'm try to advocate for black culture




I just want to be
liked
loved
and most of all
appreciated



identity is covered
in smiles and foundation
always concerned with perception
never achieving the needed

appreciation




I'm not different
I'm just misunderstood
I'm not a rebel
I'm just chose to not act like where I come from



some tubs have feet
so do my dreams
incapable of still
they don't stay in my head


you can call me token
as long as my voice is heard and spoken



sometimes the solutions your turned from
may be answers



I put it all out there
so if something that is interested will have something to grab onto
I'm not talking about speaking of the physical
and definitely not the literal
but the so disconnected that is seems intergalactic
technical cause social situations create static
so rather navigate thorough the online traffic



do you show emotion from reactions
express detachment from questions
reasons that give satisfaction




I'll always remember him
not because he took something from me
but because he cried over me
which means he really cared for me





as easy as it is to get candy in church
you can get a gun in the hood
and get drugs in jail






looked to the church for the music
but some left as hippies following their own spirit
because its the only places where the music pierces your heart
because it flows through your veins
tell their pain
don't care if they call you insane
cause Patti smith is no longer here
and the truth is what current musicians fear



Saturn is going out of business
but the planets aligned
because China bought Hummer
that proves that it doesn't matter what you offer
it matters what the masses is currently doing




tampons and cigarettes
tampons and cigarettes
I have nothing to hide
when I write
I am cleaning out my pocket
I have nothing to hide
when I write
I am cleaning out my pocket
tampons and cigarettes
tampons and cigarettes
some of it is natural
and some of it me hurting my self
but through it all
i gain a better understanding myself
I learn about the cleaning others must do
then following their path
is a decision I must choose
I don't cry
and I would never do physical abuse
but have held back
there is no burden given for being a recluse
but at the end of the day
i have nothing to hide
i have nothing to hide
but it is healthy to sometimes clean out my pocket
yea i remember to take time to clean out my pocket




LSAT, GRE, SAT
some say if your pale
you are prone to do well
but if you have melanin
you have to accept that you will be failing them
but i say they are just doubting themselves
self hate on their race
as they are downing themselves
perpetuate and encourage the educational divide
politicians say its tax payers
and it's just a coincidence
that the darker complected
are the ones most undereducated
schools are segregated
positive dreams need to be aggregated



they say you can't nod your head to lyrics
I say beats don't touch your soul

social construct

Kool Moe had lyrics on the high level,
since I hit kindergarten hip-hop has gone down hill like a bevel
we went from a golden era down to only several
put the needle on the wax and revel

---

I prove that i'm not like your stereotype
when I sing a long to that Journey song with the hype
I'm more than a new school 80s prototype
electro and indie is what I like
I write down lyrics cause fake MCs try to bite
but in my days I try to live with no fear nor fright
cause when you refuse take chances you waste your life
so I don't stop believing
time changes things in generations and seasons
but i refuse to go on a journey
that includes verbally stating, negating and relating
our compatibility and
forget my melanin
let my personality settle in

---

Being yourself is essential
its organic like some lentils
outlined like a stencil
explosions when my Moleskine hits my pencil
full of density and authenticity
different is what I'll be
bringing progress
prevents stagnation
help the movement
add acceleration

---

when you notice that at the end of your day
that you only push people away
you have to sit back and say
what have I gained

---

baby mamas and billie jean fiending
they say their safe, but to the left they be leaning
protection is not their option
mistakes forces adoption
didn't let thoughts in
moved too fast
at this age it never last

---

everyone knows
whats going up nose
you don't have any morals
so your resting on your laurels
you say your chill but all you do is quarrel
you have knowledge, but you don't use your power
success is nothing when it's sour

---

you listen to Bronques when he says take off your clothes
when you see Cobrasnake you stand in an awkward pose
your want to be famous and you believe everyone can do it
if it wasn't for party pic sites
in the scene you would be clueless

---

your favorite people never pay attention,
your wannabe proteges
you never listen

---

remember the days you asked for advice
let it be noted that I was nothing but nice
help you change into something your like
met new friends who dictate your life

---

I saw the signs
your actions are a sign of the times
I'm seeing few our kind

---

you claim that you care about hoes and clothes
living your life off No Doze
as another party comes and goes
at night you have many friends but in the day they turn to foes

---

he wears his L and D
with his APC
sipping on a PBR
he likes vinyl toys
and DDR

---

waking around downtown
I have my SLR and a tripod
I memorize music, so I don't need an ipod

---

spaz if you want to
spray bubble guts if you want to
do what you want to do
but i'm not getting close to you
you live your life with no clue

---

get up kids
black kids
cool kids
no kids
cold war kids
ChaMelknee loves the kids

---

today is yesterdays tomorrow
cause yesterday I started trends that in ten years you will follow

flossing to the tradamus

death to the dictator, God is great
I'm not in Iran, but I care about their fate
icons green
and police brutality visibly seen


politicking like Pelosi,
top model like a go see,
I'm five eight but a myspace model i'm not what I'm trying to be,
but the truth is what I what to see,
rappers lying like the CIA,
spitting for some waterboarding,
sending ignorance is all our burden

If we can agree one thing
slavery was beyond obscene
but there's still people like Steve King
who won't acknowledge and are still not keen


meet me and want to join my gang,
got more people following me than Arirang,
flipping like a gymnast,
my hype is bubbling like a chemist,
put on a gas mask
please dont call it swag
but if had to ask
they say like MJ, I'm the new Bad


I'm brushing,
flossing to the tradamus,
getting out the plaque of wack MCs,
they cant even freestyle so they're casket, dead to me.
New Orleans bury over ground,
I listen to that underground
back to the 90s and that even now,
that chi-town loft party ghettotech
and that basement house you better bet


if I can fit my size then I buy,
cause I think all clothes are unisize
and if you disagree then it's all is lies
he wears my pants,
I wear his shirts,
don't complain, they say fashion hurts

truth no lie from a guy

I get more attention from black guys,
but i speak the truth not even a white lie,
cause when we're one on one I get so shy,
I'm from the chi so i guess i do or die,
but i choose live to get my high,
not from Mary but i pray on high,
just looking because most of these guys are sneaky sly,
I build a wall so never I cry,
so I sit and wonder and sigh
will I meet my guy on a Pharcyde passing on by
or do I need to become one of those girls that does nothing by try
but its a lie to myself, if I change myself
so I continue to be me until nothing left
and one day there will be one who will beseech me and complete me
but until that day
alone I'll happily be



Cant cook many things in the kitchen,
I tell the truth there's no snitching,
I want to marry a doctor, but I have a thing for broke musicians



killing like RJ Reynolds,
but rather wrap up youth,
and save these memories,
cryogenically like Disney.
Reading Vonnegut and finding the classiest way to commit suicide in an attempt to live,
in an attempt to breathe fresh air of my freedom,
my uniqueness,
but none following the trendiness,
but i know the trends and they call my hip,
but then you say I'm not cool cause i don't dip
and I definitely don't swag,
but what I have measures up to mountains of what you lag



rob money,
get bank,
then you sip on your drank,
listen to rap music you and thats the only thing black people thank
but i know we can think
we still have poets who lyrically draw ink when they speak



I say who's the one holding my skin twins back,
but when i hear nonsense no one reacts,
rather they clap, no rather they dance.
Start the minstrel show I say every time a new BET video goes



girls look like they're from Brazil in their thong bikini,
I'm sorry is that your skirt, or did you say its a dress.
a single thread of string couldn't cover less.
You can show from your bottom to chest,
but last thing your going to get is respect
because your aiming for way way less



I want to wear Cazals over my contacts
and Lanvin over my toes.
i care about creativity and style,
not just the brand of my clothes



change your life this is the new deal,
I don't need new clothes for my style to kill


i may crush fast, but i stay grounded
I never fall,
cause most these guys say they ball
but they're not doing anything with their life at all

UNrestricted

sometimes i feel restricted
restricted by my race
restricted by my age
restricted by my gender
they make me feel restricted
oh no you cant talk like that
they say pronouncing words like that makes me not black
they expect me to sit and slack and take pride in ignorance
instead a I rather take a stance
because what was done in the past
we were finally given me a chance
and I will not lose it
I did not choose to prove that
I am bright, different and focused
because in my words, lies where it is
oh no you cant look like that
oh no you can't listen to that
why is your hair no long or perfectly styled like that
i'm tired them thinking I'm restricted
but these restrictions were not defined by one race
so do not blame
they created, but we enforce that shame

Mixtapes and Interest

I might smile in your face,
but that doesn't mean i will download your mixtape.
yea you might get lots of studio time and dates
and I'm definitely not trying to hate,
but i think I was born a generation too late
because I remember when music was music.
not just a catchy hook to snap to, swag to, lean, rock to
or whatever these fake gangsters are trying to do.
but I know the truth,
what Digable Planets, Tribe, and Pharcyde use to do
like a pop-rock group,
most of these new rap fans are full of poseurs trying to emulate
and consume mindless material that I hate.
why.
to fit in,
and that is why i lend a helping hand to those who want to be enlightened,
by what some call my guidance
out of uncertainty
but it also dawns on me
is that there really exists gangs and GDs,
who kill children like they're playing dunk hunt,
each murder made my heart sunk,
deeper and deeper than an emo kids love of the oblivion,
I can even imagine losing a son or daughter.
it will consume me like a illness that cannot absolved so simply
but i decided to swallow this bitter pill,
because I feel that I must take something to understand.
clean the mirrors,
wipe the glass,
because I don't know see why women sing songs that glorify the shaking of one's...
ask me
why I don't really dance in the club,
get close to guys and rub,
because my body is a vessel and i refuse to fake intimacy
and hear lies about how you want to get with me,
because I know they know they don't see my full potential and they don't care about my drive, they just care about getting me from point A to point B which is in their ride.
its not that I judge,
it just that I get a vibe,
and I don't pontificate, but to guys i just summarize
that I'm not interested.