Thursday, June 25, 2009

UNrestricted

sometimes i feel restricted
restricted by my race
restricted by my age
restricted by my gender
they make me feel restricted
oh no you cant talk like that
they say pronouncing words like that makes me not black
they expect me to sit and slack and take pride in ignorance
instead a I rather take a stance
because what was done in the past
we were finally given me a chance
and I will not lose it
I did not choose to prove that
I am bright, different and focused
because in my words, lies where it is
oh no you cant look like that
oh no you can't listen to that
why is your hair no long or perfectly styled like that
i'm tired them thinking I'm restricted
but these restrictions were not defined by one race
so do not blame
they created, but we enforce that shame

Mixtapes and Interest

I might smile in your face,
but that doesn't mean i will download your mixtape.
yea you might get lots of studio time and dates
and I'm definitely not trying to hate,
but i think I was born a generation too late
because I remember when music was music.
not just a catchy hook to snap to, swag to, lean, rock to
or whatever these fake gangsters are trying to do.
but I know the truth,
what Digable Planets, Tribe, and Pharcyde use to do
like a pop-rock group,
most of these new rap fans are full of poseurs trying to emulate
and consume mindless material that I hate.
why.
to fit in,
and that is why i lend a helping hand to those who want to be enlightened,
by what some call my guidance
out of uncertainty
but it also dawns on me
is that there really exists gangs and GDs,
who kill children like they're playing dunk hunt,
each murder made my heart sunk,
deeper and deeper than an emo kids love of the oblivion,
I can even imagine losing a son or daughter.
it will consume me like a illness that cannot absolved so simply
but i decided to swallow this bitter pill,
because I feel that I must take something to understand.
clean the mirrors,
wipe the glass,
because I don't know see why women sing songs that glorify the shaking of one's...
ask me
why I don't really dance in the club,
get close to guys and rub,
because my body is a vessel and i refuse to fake intimacy
and hear lies about how you want to get with me,
because I know they know they don't see my full potential and they don't care about my drive, they just care about getting me from point A to point B which is in their ride.
its not that I judge,
it just that I get a vibe,
and I don't pontificate, but to guys i just summarize
that I'm not interested.